I haven’t been writing the last few days. Sorry, things have been all over the place. I will catch up on my letters at some stage. Things have been busy at times, and quiet at times, with no motivation to do anything other than lie in my bed with my kitten and stare at the ceiling. I spent Thursday night driving, and last night walking by the beach admiring the sculptures by the sea. Exams are looming. I’ve been disassociating more again, nightmares are worse, and I’m sleeping less, which is usually linked to how present I manage to be. I think I’m just completely physically and emotionally exhausted after the last month or so – which has been even more tiring than usual. I’m trying to keep myself centred.
I’m under instruction to answer my doctor’s daily calls for the moment, after ending up places I shouldn’t be without any knowledge of getting there. In an attempt to get myself out of this rut, I am spending the next two days studying with a friend at her house. Meaning: I have to get dressed, I have to brush my teeth, I have to take some notes, I have to engage in some conversation and I can’t drive places without someone realising. I also need to get at least one decent stint of sleep before Wednesday when Youth Health 2011 starts (which, despite being utterly exhausted, I am really looking forward to). I think the coming week is going to be somewhat overwhelming.